"You can make many plans,
but the Lord's purpose will prevail."
Proverbs 19:21
I am not as good at this blog thing as I thought I would be...
Here I am, on May 29, 2012 at 10:40-ish in the morning, laying on the couch. Six months ago I had a completely different idea of what I would be doing right now. In what I later learned was out of over-confident ignorance, I planned on being on Summer Staff at Camp Capers this summer. I would be moved into Steve's Hall, participating in Staff Week festivities and getting ready for all the precious campers to arrive. Unfortunately though, as a 4:55pm call on a Monday in February from Brian revealed, that would not be the case. I remember the specifics of that call because I foolishly answered the phone as I was sitting in a lecture hall, waiting for my 5pm class to begin. Silly me, I was expecting a different conversation to take place. I sat through the class, doodling more than taking notes, then walked back to my apartment in the rain, which was good because it hid my tears. Soon, Danny, my bff at Texas State would arrive at my apartment and I just cried and cried... props to Danny for dealing with my emotional self. I didn't understand at that point. The elevator in my heart went from floor 34 to 2 in a matter of minutes.
In the meantime, I continued to paint and ended up making an account on Etsy to sell my paintings to people, strangers, from all over. This kept me pretty busy, and gave me an outlet to do something I enjoy and take my mind off everything else. This "hobby" has proved to be successful. I still have a pretty regular list of orders to fill.
As the semester came to a close and I realized that for the first time in 19 years I didn't have the slightest idea of what I would be doing that summer, I decided I needed to pick myself up and find something to fulfill me. Through a friend, I heard of an internship opportunity in San Antonio with the communications department at an energy company. I would be working with the corporate photographer and other employees in the department. I applied, found housing (SO thankful for my great friends and their families), and obtained an interview date for the position. Two days before the interview, I received another call that would change my plans again. The position could no longer be filled due to financial problems. Bummer.
So, the semester ended, with my grades lower than ever before in my college career and I had no idea what I would be doing for the next three months. For some, this may not be a problem, but I was having a hard time being "ok" with it. I packed up my apartment and with the help of my parents, I have moved home to Dripping Springs for now.
I continue to paint, have applied for numerous lifeguarding jobs, and have been offered a few internship/side jobs/housesitting opportunities. Yes, there are options for this summer. Now I have to decided where I need to be. Things are looking up, just not in the way I expected they would be. I know God is and will teach me something in all of this.
For now, I have an interview at Schlitterbahn tomorrow, I have five paintings to complete, and I'm lifeguarding at an end of the year party on Thursday.
Each day I'm becoming more and more "ok" with the fact that I'm not spending my summer in Waring. I'm happy for the staff that is getting the opportunity to grow and be challenged in the same, and different ways, that I have in the past. Great things will happen because of the staff's faith, community and willingness to serve others in Christ's name.
I'm done for now.. this is where I stand for now..
I'll fill you in on the rest later!
Besos, Grace
PS. This was freaking long, I know. But it is good to write my thoughts, trials, and celebrations. You don't have to care, but this is good for me.
